shh
Of interminable pride -
A mystery, and a dream,
Should my early life seem;
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on a side note,
i am going to the gym tomorrow and working my ass off..
1000 calorie limit this week.
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this weekend consisted of,
working - thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. opening sunday and friday.. i have been at my job for over 24 hours these past few days total. hoping to have enough money to fly to florida sooner than later..
anyway.
went out two of the three nights. degraded myself and had sex with the person i mentioned in my last post..but i dont get it. because i know when hes trying to hook up with other people and who it is and everything but , i dont get jealous.. or angry.. or upset. it is what it is.
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three people
1. i sincerely hate. i haven’t spoken to for almost three months now. i know the attempt will be made by him again. i will explode , i mean - fire, fireworks , gun shots. all sorts of things. . like no other when he does make that attempt at communication, and i know ‘it’ will. oh.. i kind of cant wait for it to.. so many simple angry thoughts to splurge.
narcissistic motherfucker.
2. i also, pretty much hate. but in a dumb i love you hate you i spend a lot of time thinking about you kind of way. in that way that you’d never know how much i really truly feel for you. in that stupid ‘gay’ way of , i’d be the happiest girl on earth to just fall asleep next to you, and please you and make you smile. but i know you’d never give me the chance. all i am is a ‘woman’ - and all you are is a lost boy in the midst of self destruction, unknowingly. everything that is willing to give you a second look you’d pounce on, as if you had any standards at all.. so what am i ? im not some sensitive girl.. i don’t really care when it comes down to it. i just dont think you understand how much patience im willing to have with you.. its unusual and strange and unlike me. but then again, i am always attracted to the serious assholes. i dont mean ‘OMG UR SUCH A PLAYUR’ i mean, SERIOUS asshole attributes..
coward with confidence.
3. this one girl. her look, her weight, her hair, her way of expression is way off. it needs to be fixed before anyone truly discovers it, though no one has ever en come close.
so sue me.
